That time of year

 The days started getting shorter. The sun was bright, but it wasn’t warm anymore. It was all used up and would have to be replaced with a new bulb. The maple leaves were coming down like girls jumping out of hotel windows with their dresses on fire. All the ice cream stores had put curtains in their windows, as if there were deaths in the family. 

I looked in the closet for a warmer coat. I finally came out with a woollen overcoat. I tried it on. Moths flew everwhere around me, like I was in a little snowstorm. It was me. I let winter out of the box. 

— from Heather O’Neill’s The Girl that was Saturday Night 



Some friends and I saw Rayland Baxter open up for Shakey Graves in Vancouver last week. There were 13 of us. Each and every one of us just stood there with our jaws dropped. I can’t remember the last time I was that captivated at a concert.

Happy Monday

The other day I went to a party even though I was very tired and only wanted to sleep. I was speaking with a girl there who I had just met. She asked me what my hobbies were outside of work. I told her that mostly I just liked to watch TV. Sometimes I’m not good at parties.

That said, TV is making me pretty happy these days. But it’s not the only thing.

In a WorldThis movie is so underrated. It’s on Netflix. Watch it tonight.

Demetri Marin. Aside from being one of the fantastic supporting actors in In a World, he’s also a hilarious stand up comic. Last weekend Kurt treated me to a night out at the Just for Laughs show, where he was absolutely the highlight.

Shakey Graves. Love this guy. I saw him play a sold out show in Vancouver last week with some of my favourite people. We were all completely stopped in our tracks. So glad we went instead of selling out $16 tickets for the $100 people were offering to pay on craigslist.

When things go smoothly. I love simple. I go out of my way to make things simple. I went to Vancouver to see Shakey Graves with 8 other people–and met 4 more there. In my experience, trying to do anything with 13 people is a recipe for disaster. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t have a bit of anxiety around this, but oh my goodness it went perfectly. No one missed the ferry! We found 9 seats together! Union took our reservation and everyone showed up on time! And the food was unreal! And the Keefer Bar had room for us! And the show was just amazing! Best 24 hour vacation!

Running. I love Fall/Winter running. I love running in the dark. I’m up to 10km now. Still a lot of distance to cover to get me back to where I was, but I’m completely okay with that.

Overcoming Insomnia: “Other” Approaches

Often it goes like this: You start having trouble with sleep. Maybe you are just restless or maybe you have full blown insomnia. Maybe you’re down to 5 hours a night or maybe you’re down to 1. Either way it sucks. So you make the recommended lifestyle changes. You talk to you doctor and try some natural sleep aids on her recommendation. But your sleep struggles persist and when they go on long enough you are willing to try anything. ANYTHING….including:

Acupuncture. Fortunately I was lucky to have a practitioner friend who was committed to curing my insomnia with regular acupuncture.  Depending on your income and your benefits, this isn’t an option for everyone. Unfortunately my regular acupuncture treatments did not help me sleep. They relaxed me incredibly, perhaps the most unstressed and relaxed I’ve ever been, but it did not effect my insomnia.

Transformational Breathwork. This was interesting. I took a 4 hour workshop that involved lying in a dark room with 10 strangers and just breathing under the guidance of practitioners. For 4 hours. It seemed as though everyone else in the room had life changing experiences, but not me. And no, it did not help me sleep. 

Hypnosis. I wanted this to work so badly, I really did. But it did not. I went to three sessions. I believed.  I participated. I followed all the instructions. I think I’m just too high strung to be hypnotized. Didn’t work. 

Swimming. Apparently this resets your circadian rhythm. It didn’t help me.

Meditation. Again, I’m too high strung for this to work, though I’m totally open to trying meditating again…one day.

Prayer. Nope. 

Podcasts and Crime Dramas. I have no idea why this works for me, but it does. It’s a trick I use when I wake up in the middle of the night or too early on a weekend and just feel awake and ready to go at a time that I should still be sleeping. I put on a podcast or a crime drama–something that I’m not invested in or excited about, but am interested enough in to take my mind away. I’m able to check out, my mind drifts and I fall back to sleep.

Therapy. Every six months or so the Globe and Mail has an article on Cognitive Behavioural Therapy – Insomnia (CBT-I) and how it can cure insomnia better than anything. Unfortunately, there are very few CBT-I trained therapists in Canada and none that I have found Vancouver Island, or elsewhere who would be willing to speak over the phone. So while, this sounds very promising, it is not accessible to everyone at this time. I did, however, speak with a therapist with some sleep experience, but it was clear my issues were out of her scope.

Oh the things you try when you’re desperate. While I know some of the practices above really do help people sleep, I just wasn’t one of the lucky ones.

Overcoming Insomnia: Naturally

In my post about insomnia and lifestyle I said that the first two things people ask about when you tell them you’re not sleeping are your coffee intake and exercise details. That was a lie. The first thing they always ask is, Have you tried melatonin? And when this happens to me, I want to punch that person in the face. People, this is not a helpful thing to say to someone who is genuinely struggling with sleep. Of course they have tried melatonin. Everyone has. And for some people it works great, but for others it doesn’t work at all. Fortunately, these days health food stores are lined with different natural methods to encourage sleep. Here is what I have tried, yes, including melatonin.

Melatonin. I’ve used this off and on over the years. It helped for mild sleep trouble, but not at all for real insomnia. Despite this I used to take it hopefully every night, but heard through the grapevine that it wasn’t wise to take long term or regularly so I stopped and my sleep patterns didn’t change.

Valerian. This did not help me sleep at all, just made me feel uncomfortably high as I lay awake throughout the night. A friend of mine also tried valerian for a bout of sleeplessness. It definitely made her feel wonky, but it also helped her to sleep.

Selenium. This did nothing with my insomnia, other than make me feel the same way valerian did.

Magnesium. When I first read about the symptoms of magnesium deficiency, I thought I had solved the problem. I was so sure that taking magnesium before bed would be my silver bullet. It wasn’t. However, there is a difference in my sleep quality when I take it and when I don’t. If you have sleep trouble or aren’t getting deep sleep, you might want to talk with your doctor about potentially having a magnesium deficiency. Taking magnesium before bed didn’t help me sleep, but it has improved the quality of my sleep.

Chinese Medicine Concoction. Didn’t work.

GABA. GABA was recommended to me by a friend when I was struggling pretty frequently with anxiety. I ended up taking it before bed when my mind was racing and was surprised by how effective it was. GABA helps to turn my mind off and bring me to sleep. Unfortunately I haven’t been able to find any reputable reports on the safety of long term or regular use, so I try to limit it for those nights (or middle of the nights) when my mind just won’t be quiet.

Again, this is not an exhaustive list of the natural options available to improve sleep, it’s just what I tried and how it worked for me. Before trying any of the above, or anything at all for that matter, please talk to your doctor. Side effects are real and crazy things.


two birds, one post

1. The Decemberists recently announced that they would be gracing us with a new album in January 2015 and I am over the moon. I love this band.

2. Kurt and I are taking off to Los Angeles today for some sunshine, roller coasters and hockey. See you in a week!